Brea G. - "Chronic" Lyrics

I'm chronically ill so I take one more pill
Something's always hurting, I feel like a burden
I'm optimistic but I'm jaded
I both love my life and I hate it
Searching for a better solution
While "normal" feels like a delusion

Some days it ain't so bad
But some days are the worst I've had
Constantly talking to doctors and nurses
On the drive home I'm shouting my curses
Wishing there was a cure, or that my health was more secure
But I guess that's not what "chronic" stands for.

I'm sad all the time but I still try to smile
Make the most of my moments so it feels worthwhile
When my body needs constant maintaining
I'm sorry for all the complaining
But I'm always too damn exhausted
And don't get me started on how much it's costed

To me, the pain is loud
But it's invisible to the crowd
Try to be grateful - at least I'm alive
But is that enough when you feel like you barely survive?
Pining for silver linings, riding the waves to shore
But "chronic" means there's always more

More tests and more treatments
More bedrest and regrets
More loved ones who walk away
More love for the ones who stay.

I'm lonely and I'm scared
When I'm hit with another flare
But courage don't mean that you feel no fear
Strength is the fact that I'm still here.
Go through familiar motions
I know I've been here before
That's just what the "chronic" stands for.