Things I Wouldn't Change Video (MV)

This is a story I'm scared you won't understand
But if I tell it now I'll have the upper hand
They say that if you sin
You'll always be forgiven
But what if this time I don't want a god to listen
I tried a thousand drugs to try to run away
Some were prescribed and others everybody takes
None of them seem to help with carrying the weight
I know my mother didn't think it'd go this way
And now my fathers in a parking lot alone
Smoking his last cigarette before he's headed home and
I'll never get to see the look upon his face
Holding my first child or me before my wedding day
I wonder if my sisters ever think of me
Or if they still cry while putting up the family tree
Cause all those years ago it used to be just me
And now they're probably sitting round a table set for 3
And all I think about is leaving them alone
But I had to find a place that I could call home
Safe enough to rest without waking through the night
But Don't think for a second I don't hope that you're alright
I hope you've done all of the things I couldn't do
I hope that sorrow hasn't taken over you
The way it did when I was standing in your shoes
I hope you know that it was never cause of you
And some day when i have children of my own
I hope that you can understand the way that I have grown
I've mended up this heart and tucked the pain away
So I can fall in love and see another day
I hope you fall in love and you are healing too
Just know there's so much life ahead of you
And that I'm proud of you even if you pray
That you'll hate me forever and forget about my face
And I guess after all this I'd have to say
Thanks to all the ones who broke apart my brightest days
Cause without you I wouldn't have the things I wouldn't change
And suddenly it all makes sense why I have faced the pain