Caelan Blake - Sober Lyrics

I've been fighting off wars out here on my own
I can't sit still it's out of my control
Dreaming wide awake and watching days pass by
I know I gotta stop but I just don't know why
Losing my faith and I don't know what I've done
The ball is in my court but it's a loaded gun
Heading my way and I can feel it getting closer
Cause I'm so damn high that I just can't stop now
And if I fall theres no choice I've gotta hit the ground
Being this way has got me so much older
I kind of wish I was sober
Everything is static these emotions getting bolder
They're climbing all around me putting weight upon my shoulders
And we've fallen out of love but I still wish I could hold her
So I've gotta burn it down
Sit and watch it smoulder
But I've can't slow down because I know it's wrong
But when I'm out of it the world is never quite this fun
I'm a danger to myself and I can feel it getting colder
I kinda wish I was sober
So sit and watch me fall apart
We were broken from the start
Dream collapse and move on back
And see me have another heart attack
So sit and watch me fall apart
We were broken from the start
Dream collapse and move on back
And see me have another heart attack
Being this way has got me so much older
I just wish that I was sober
We've fallen out of love but I still wish I could hold her
I just wish that I was sober
I've gotta burn it down I've gotta sit and watch it smoulder
I just wish that I was sober
I think it's getting colder now I think it's getting colder
I just wish that I was sober
But I think it's almost over now I'm losing focus
I'm trying to come back but it has got me feeling hopeless
Beauty is never going to come for this beholder
Because I don't think that I'll ever be sober