Caskey - The Truth Lyrics

Ay yo this one for my old man, miss you
This "The Truth" part 1
Ay yo I been having trouble going to
Sleep at night lately I just
I guess I got a lot on my mind, yeah

Maybe they just don't understand where
I'm coming from damn
Been alone, age seventeen, life's in my hand
Grab the phone like
"What up homie tell me something positive
Cause God damn
Life been feeling like it's the apocalypse"
Real shit, I need progression I still spit
But something bout this rap game
Left me with steel fists
Boxing, these cats worst than some toxins
Lot of janky shit
Deadweight motherf*ckers trying to
Anchor this, i can't have it
I been sailing ships every since
Them days out at
Seas with my father God damn I miss it
Shit missed you for a minute
My hardest times I ain't go forget it
He told me play the game
Smart that was the beginning
Probably should of listened harder cause
A lot of things missing
A lot of things different
A lot of complication but my
Mission still the same
And I'm in it til' I'm filling in a grave
These days feel I'm in a maze
Everybody want the cheese
But don't really want the taste
It's bitter-sweet
I'm outside in this killer heat
Probably got some killers contemplating
Bout killing me but f*ck it the though
My girl ask why I'm ducking so
Whenever this troll pull by, I say
"It's nothing ho" but damn
She call me out clam I'm bluffing
So I cut it short
Say, "The topic ain't up for discussion folk"
It's cold, but so is my heart
And really I mean froze
Cause my mother never really like the
Path that I had choose
And farther choose a path that left us both
Staring at the ceiling like where
The f*ck he go i'm praying to my pops
And ain't never spoke back
And people got the never to ask
Me why I smoke that
Or ask D why the f*ck he in a dope trap
Trying to get paid
And theses streets ain't got a lot of ways
Especially when living as a black
Man I understood that
Cause I been out of place
Yeah trying to rap damn
And that's the facts
In vain the world was born in it
If God made it why he put
So many storms in it
And all these women got a lot of babies born
When the f*ck did seventeen as
A mother become a norm
I contemplated walking to my dorm
Same time thinking bout a college
That I can't afford, i'm struggling
My mom clam that it's necessary, my suffering
But nothing necessary bout me loving it
Half her paycheck steady going
To the government and all she do is teach
How the f*ck they expect us to eat supper
Yo and who the f*ck is God
And how come he don't speak to me
Some say he in my head
Really trying to speak through me
Sound like some bullshit
Taking all the credit
Use to love the church
I ain't trying to say that I regret it
Just wised up visualized my life
Individualized in all the clone shit
Got me feeling simplified
Been on my own ship building me a enterprise
Got to take the time to initialize
This could be the end time
Don't know if I'll end the sky or if I'm
A end up chilling at the world center I'm
In this game of life trying
To make myself a winner
But I'm looking like some beef
To these cats wanting dinner
So I'm questioning a lot God
Shit it's not that I don't believe
Just trying to keep track
I just think it's f*cked up that
You don't never speak back
Like why the f*ck I'm here
Praying on my knees that
I can get a buzz inside the streets
That'll make me just a little bit
A little is all I'm needing to survive
And why when I needed a farther he
Just needed to get high
I'm crying cause my sister in the same boat
Swimming in the same water
Hanging on the same rope
And I'm doing all I can trying
To keep my fam float
But these hands only do so much mane I hope
That's why I learn to cover with the smoke
And escape to another place
In another world where I'm straight
And f*ck these hatters trying to hate
If they want it they can get it
But they getting in my way
Cause I be talking bout
More than getting paid
But they said I wasn't deep enough
That's all I got to say