I let you in, then I let it end
Never thought I'd feel love again
You hurt me, I hurt you more
I took a turn and slammed that door
God damn it hurts again
Blood sitting in my palm again
Never thought we'd be through
2 months still hung up on you
8 long months they weren't perfect
Still I never thought I deserved it
You were worth it you deserved it
You didn't deserve the night when we spilt
But I held back some love I had
Now I know you're not coming back
And Even as Im crying while dropping this verse
It feels like I'm living shifted in reverse
Living with the love I lost from you
I shouldn't even think about it yeah but I do
Yeah I know it's such a damned obvious thing
But I still miss you it's so exhausting
Yeah on my lips I can still taste your kiss
I'm falling further into the black abyss
I ripped all the stuff you gave me
I wish I hadn't that shut coulda saved me
I f*cking mean it I'm almost there
Just out here trying to find a breath of fresh air
But Im drowning out here, thinking of you
Off the handle and smoke now it's all I do
And I hate to say I still love you
And I know you're seeking closure too