Chaotic Perfection - El Lyrics

I painted for you a canvas of my whole life
Quickly attached to those that stay by my side
My pupils held many feelings I had to hide
You mean to tell me you couldn't see through my eyes?
Did the thought never bother you?
Did you wanna look inside?
Could you have got attached and then leave me behind?
Because I saw red, so I walked a blurry line
If I were to end up dead, tell me would you
Maybe cry?
If I had let myself spill everything to you
At night I question what you would do
If you knew what I knew
I am sick of suffering, not knowing if you're
Loving me
Clouds above me hovering, straying from recovery
I just want this tale to end so I can stop wondering
I painted for you a canvas of my whole life
Quickly attached to those that stay by my side
My pupils held many feelings I had to hide
You mean to tell me you couldn't see through my eyes?
Did the thought never bother you,
Did you wanna look inside?
Could you have got attached and then leave me behind?
Because I saw red, so I walked a blurry line
If I were to end up dead,
Tell me would you maybe cry?
If I had stopped time just to hear your answer
Would you rewind or would you want what's after?
Will I ever know?
Take me to that chapter
I painted for you a canvas of my whole life
Quickly attached to those that stay by my side
My pupils held many feelings I had to hide
You mean to tell me you couldn't see through my eyes?
Did the thought never bother you?
Did you wanna look inside?
Could you have got attached and then leave me behind?
Because I saw red, so I walked a blurry line
If I were to end up dead, tell me would you maybe cry?
If I had let myself spill everything to you
At night I question what you would do
If you knew what I knew