CheffaMC - $addict Lyrics

Smokin', I'm chokin' my lungs out When Cheffa's around, bring the blunts out
Rememberin' days, I would blaze it for fun But I need it to live, it's no fun now
Feelin' alone in a bud cloud Only wanna make my mum proud
People tryin' to give me tips and lessons I won't get the message unless you dumb it down
I've been space cadetting runnin' reckless round Now I'm real inclusive, never leave the house
But it doesn't matter where or what I've been Because I'm always sinnin', never feelin' proud
I've been never winnin', call me fishy-fishy Cause I'm sleepin' with them, layin' underwater
Gettin' foggy vision, I can't see the exit Nearly out of breath, and now I'm stressin
Restless', both my feet are kickin'
I don't know what I expected to happen
If I kept on rappin', but
It presented me stresses I couldn't imagine
And I couldn't hack it
Lay back on my mattress And think of the days I was wasted on tablets
Still nothin' has changed, except for my habits
I blaze like an addict
Maybe cause I am I remember thinkin' that I really was a man
Nowadays I'm thinkin' that I'm better off as sand Yeah, I used to want it all, but I could
Really give a damn
I'm feelin' lost, like I can't formulate a plan
Will I live until I'm 30? I don't really think I can
Everything is hurting, I got fractures in my hands
And if I remember nothing, then for once I might be glad
Then for once I might be
It's becoming a chore, writing these stories It feels so laborious, but I don't have an escape left
Living is boring, there's nothing here for me I try to get help, they say take meds
It's true what they say, nah the drugs never work So why do I constantly chase them
Alone with my thoughts, even in company Bro, I just wanna escape it
Livid feelings got me itchy, itchy as I'm tensin' up and I get cold and wiggy
Teeth are gritting, I can't stop the shiver Drinkin' 8%ers till I rot my liver
I no longer wanna feel a thing Now I get infuriated when I speak
I'm sick of coughin' up black in the sink Blackout drunk is how I'm fallin' asleep
And when I'm asleep, I don't wanna wake
I've been givin' choices I don't wanna make
Got a funny taste from this lemonade And I'm hearin' voices, don't know what they're sayin
Lookin' back, yeah, I shoulda been a better mate But I'm not, so instead I'm gonna head away
Burnin' sage, hopin' that I maybe get erased Cause I'm too bitch, I don't know another getaway
Levitatin', wanna rise above I think it's f*ck the physical, I'm not in love with it
Matter fact, I think I'm f*ckin' done with it I'm dead already, it's no longer fun to live
I wanna be spread in the sea I need a way to forget everything
I've been forgettin' how it feels to be free Feelin' trapped, it's a struggle to breathe
It's a struggle to breathe