Christian - Trapped Lyrics

Hey man, I was just returning your call from earlier
You were asking how I was doing
And to be honest bro
You know what, never mind
Let me tell you where my head's been at
I'm not in a great place, I've been actually sad
I've been depressed in my bed, all alone in my head
With these emotions in my brain that I've been trying to combat
Don't know where I'm going or what the future holds
I'm worried sick to my stomach that I won't achieve my goals
It's hard to cope with life and the way that things unfold
I feel like I'm punished if I don't fit inside the molds
Anxiety is coming and depression won't leave
Fear overstayed his welcome, telling lies to deceive
I'm stressed about the future, anticipating the worst
Can't even rest in my sleep, starting to feel like I'm cursed
It's like I'm underwater, trying my best just to breathe
Or when it seems there's no hope, trying my best to believe
Especially with a mind that's only filled with doubt
Feeling trapped in the pain like I'll never make it out
I don't know just where to go
Trapped in my mind with no control
I don't know just where to go
Trapped with these thoughts in an endless woe
The me you see right here is not the me when I'm at home
Because the me when I'm at home is the me when I'm alone
And the me when I'm alone is the me that goes unknown because
That's the version of myself I don't like to have shown
There's silence in the struggle and there's struggle in the silence
Scared to ask for help for fear of building a reliance
But I'm also scared of going through this by my lonesome
Can't even write because lately I've been so numb
What if I don't make it, what if I don't succeed
What if this amounts to nothing, nothing's guaranteed
Just going through life like every day is the same
Filled with pain and some rain, I don't like how things became
When will things get better? I'm tired of asking
I'm tired of keeping my composure of this pain I've been masking
I'm sitting here just watching life as it's passing
Feeling trapped inside my mind like it'll be everlasting
I don't know just where to go
Trapped in my mind with no control
I don't know just where to go
Trapped with these thoughts in an endless woe
I don't know just where to go
Trapped in my mind with no control
I don't know just where to go
Trapped with these thoughts in an endless woe
I've gotta push through