Ciderdown - Valentine's Day Lyrics

I take it out of the box
I dust off the regret
Boy this thing's ugly, yeah
What'd you expect
It's always been ugly
It always will be
But this old f*cking box
Has less power over me every time
And when I unwrap it, it looks just like a pile of flesh
It smells like old cat shit, yeah it's a knee straight into the chest
And I'll never forget the way that you screamed till three AM
My roommates in their beds in the next room
It comes back real subtle
The touch of your beard
The jewelry I didn't want
The jacket you wore all year
We'd go to the movies
We'd eat and you'd pay
Hoping your daddy's credit card
Might get me to stay
And I'll never forget how you said to me, every couple fights
You wanted my hair long, you said, love is sacrifice
Well it's been years now babe, and I've grown my hair out red
Ooh
And I'll never forget, on the bus on Valentine's Day
You were surprised I wanted flowers, thought I hated the holiday
And realizing I'd been giving pieces of my skin
Grating down my elbows and wearing my hands thin
Petals in return for the forgiving of your sins
Ooh
I put it back in the box
Put it back in the corner
Leave that room of my mind
I shut the door there
I am my own garden
I am my own sun
And blooming in my mind
The flowers I always wanted
I always wanted
Some sad boy to want me
I am always wanted
I want me
I want me
I want me
I want me
I want me
I want me