Coleslaw - Here and Now Lyrics

Like a train that is gone
Still darkens the sun
My former mistakes keep surrounding me
Instead of leaving them behind
I take the past as my bride
And I am dancing with what might have been

Like a train that is gone
(My past controls my mind - should leave it all behind)
Still darkens the sun
(I'm stuck in yesterday - can't change it anyway)

Am I already dead?
Why can't I live instead?
Why am I always betrayed by what is far behind?
Why can't I draw the line?
And just feel fine?
When here and now everything is alright

Like a train that will come
Makes the gates come down
My unknown future stands in front of me
Fog is blinding my eyes
Feels like I'm paralyzed
I always deal with this uncertainty

Like a train that will come
(It's such a waste of time - should leave it all behind)
Makes the gates come down
(Every step I'm on - could be my final one)

Why can't I live for today?
Tomorrow's so far away
Why am I always afraid of being pushed aside?
How can I think of next year?
Why am I filled with fear?
When here and now everything is alright