Collectively Known As Susan - Soliloquy Lyrics

I know that you're leaving, I can feel it deep inside
I'm sorry if I'm not connecting here, I'm too busy trying to hide
These walls I build between us, you don't know what they're about
They're to keep my heart intact and all my guts from spilling out
When I'm full of doubt

Please don't misunderstand me, it has nothing to do with you
I live inside this house I made, believing I had a clue
I won't try to hold you back, if you're gonna leave then go
But before you leave me hanging, there's one thing that you should know
I won't tell you though

So when you tire of me, I'll stop wasting your time
But if I say I'm okay, well I might be lying
And as our sun starts setting, I will keep to mine
I promise I'll be fine

These mixed messages I'm sending, I hope you're getting them in time
I'm sorry I was never there for you and for how little that I tried
These words never seem to help me, they just keep getting in the way
That's why I'm sitting here in silence racking my brain for what to say
As we're parting ways

So when you tire of me, I'll stop wasting your time
But if I say I'm okay, well I might be lying
And as our sun starts setting, I will keep to mine
I promise I'll be fine