Connor Powers - In My Head Lyrics

I am so tired of being me
I swear most days I don't know what that means
Anymore
'Cause in my head
I'm the hero and the enemy
And it's out of my control to say which one I'm gonna be
In my head
All my demons and reasons are first thing on my mind
So I dress 'em up, overthink
F*ck it, pour me a drink
Till there's nowhere to hide
How can my own four walls be the worst of them all?
Why do we hurt ourselves without having a cause?
It's a crime without motive that starts to feel hopeless
I'm losing myself and it's not in the moment
Who do you call when you're starting to fall
And your fear is the worst of it all
Is in your head, oh woah
In my head, oh
In my head
All my lovers have fingers crossed behind their backs
Oh the one I've got, oh he makes me sad
But I'm convinced he's all I'll ever have
In my head
Should feel like a party surrounded by faces that love me, I know
But ignore intentions, focus on rejection
And wind up still feeling alone
Successes and failures start to melt together
Downplaying each one of my own endeavors
Till my voice rings out, "Quit wasting your time"
My own harshest critic, it's killing my pride
God it's no fun in my head