Control Freak - Decidedly Neither Lyrics

I wake up in the morning
Or the afternoon sometimes
Open up the dictionary
The one made just for rhymes
I even grab my Thesaurus
To give me synonyms
Sit back and close my eyes
See what my vision is
Sometimes I gotta wonder
Why I put myself through this
I guess I just can't help myself
It's my personal abyss
I keep on chasing dreams
I don't think they exist
I'm grasping onto hope
But my grasp it always slips
I wanted to be famous
I wanted to be rich
I thought that was my future
It would go without a hitch
My paycheck pays my mortgage
Google of me is blank
So which one did I get?
Decidedly neither
Evenings on my laptop
I try to make it work
Dreams of royalty checks
My lifestyle goes berserk
Thinking of past stories
To come up with a song
I fall asleep still thinking
About how I got it wrong
But I know I'll keep on dreaming
And hoping for a spark
With so many other artists
It's hard to make your mark
I think nobody's listening
To what I'm trying to do
But here's another song
I made it just for you
Sometimes I gotta wonder
Why I put myself through this
I guess I just can't help myself
It's my personal abyss
I keep on chasing dreams
I don't think they exist
I'm grasping onto hope
But my grasp it always slips
I wanted to be famous
I wanted to be rich
I thought that was my future
It would go without a hitch
My paycheck pays my mortgage
Google of me is blank
So which one did I get?
Decidedly neither
Weeks and months keep passing
I still receive no check
My lyrics fill the pages
Finances are a wreck
Fame it seems so distant
So far out of reach
I guess I'll keep on writing
Thanks for listening to my speech
I wanted to be famous
I wanted to be rich
I thought that was my future
It would go without a hitch
My paycheck pays my mortgage
Google of me is blank
So which one did I get?
Decidedly neither
Heads or Tails? Neither
Odd or Even? Neither
Pass or Fail? Neither
Hot or Cold? Neither
Left or Right? Neither
Right or Wrong? Neither
Black or White? Neither
On or Off? Neither