CTS - Contemplate Lyrics

Well, it's been hard for me to concentrate
With all these things I contemplate
My thoughts are overflowing
Please don't ask me how it's going
I just think I need to meditate
But I'm just gonna medicate
I don't got time to hesitate
Cause life is way too f*cking short
And I got things I want to do
And I don't want to die young
I'm just trying to make it through like any other person
But when my problems worsen
A nigga end up hurting
There's a lot that you don't get to see behind closed curtains
Nothing is for certain
Other than death
But I'll never truly know
When I'll take my last breath
Can you tell me where you go
When you have nothing left
Other than your soul
I keep on getting upset over things I can't control
When I need to let go
So I can feel free
I just want to know
Do you really feel me?
I just need to grow
So I can heal me
I've been feeling low
So I keep myself high
Smoking on this dope
Is what's getting me by
Why
Do I
Even f*cking try?
When this life is a lie
This life is a lie
Why
Do I
Even f*cking try?
When this life is a lie
Smoking on this dope
Is what's getting me by
Damn