Deadlines - Defend Lyrics

Today, I've come to think things will never change.
I'm so sick of how you make me feel,
but I'm not going to let you bring me down.
Not this time, again.
I don't care what you say,
today I'm the selfish one.
I hate that I hate myself.
I'm preaching to the dead.
I'm so afraid of losing something I love
that I refuse to love anything at all.