D-Dub - Letter to My Dad Lyrics

My mum was young and having fun
When I was born my dad didn't know he had a son
I've heard lies heard truth but I deserved proof
I grew up thinking he was running like a marathon
What the f*ck could I do there's way too much damage done
I felt the pain the rage and embarrassment
Don't try and take me for some silver spooned white boy
I was up and down the field attacking em like maddison
We just about got by I was a filthy gob shite
While mum took a whole load of pressure it's not right
That's when she lost her job and then begun to shot white
I can't blame my dad but I know he has not tried
You should know my souls cold I'm immune to frostbite
I'm up and away in the wind like a lost kite
Life's a madness I just wanna stop time
I feel like I'm Tommy Cooper dying in the spotlight

I could of wrote a letter to my dad
Instead I put pen up in my pad then went and said it on a track
There ain't no other way to tell him he's a twat
In fact have you ever been a dad never that
I could of wrote a letter to my dad
Instead I put pen up in my pad then went and said it on a track
There ain't no other way to tell him he's a twat
In fact have you ever been a dad never that

I'm mad at you I need my daddy too
But it's twenny five years late I'm a dad of two
Man I swear you don't even have a clue
You just wanna have a drink & then you've only had a few
So I lock off kick back n wrao a zoot write a track or two
About the shit I've had to battle through
I put my fear in a trap like a panic room
Deaths in the air can you feel it's a tragic noon
I was taught revenge is sweet like sugar
So I cherish every meal like it's my last supper
I don't know why we choose to hurt one another
Pain runs deep when it hides undercover
To my brother I never had the chance to love ya
You was raised by both parents I was dragged up in the gutter
By my mother where I had to lear to suffer
But man I cannot judge ya cuz now I am above that

I could of wrote a letter to my dad
Instead I put pen up in my pad then went and said it on a track
There ain't no other way to tell him he's a twat
In fact have you ever been a dad never that
I could of wrote a letter to my dad
Instead I put pen up in my pad then went and said it on a track
There ain't no other way to tell him he's a twat
In fact have you ever been a dad never that

I could of wrote a letter to my dad
What's the point when I know he wouldn't write back
I met him once then I got no response
It's kind of mad how he brushed me off like that
It's not right I couldn't turn my back on my lad
I'm quick to react like a venus fly trap
Tough luck he missed out I raise my own kids now
Don't dwell on the past cuz you can't turn time back
Life still goes on don't rely on no one
I doubt my dad will even listen to this whole song
I bottle up emotions then turn the microphone on
This gass leak will catch heat I'm about to blow don
Who am I when the bars and the flows gone
Just a no one someone tryna hold on
I used to wonder where do people get hope from
Life's too short but feels Ike it's so long

I could of wrote a letter to my dad
Instead I put pen up in my pad then went and said it on a track
There ain't no other way to tell him he's a twat
In fact have you ever been a dad never that
I could of wrote a letter to my dad
Instead I put pen up in my pad then went and said it on a track
There ain't no other way to tell him he's a twat
In fact have you ever been a dad never that