Deejay - Self Doubt Lyrics

How many verses can I write until I stop
How many charts will climb till I flop
How much Imma flap my wings tilll I fly
How many lives will I lift till I die
All these questions been circlin round my mind
What if who I am is who i will never find
Insecurities are my closest to friends
I cut em off but they always welcome me back again
It's been awhile since I honestly felt some pride
I'm bad at talking to people but I'm so fluent in lies
My grandpa know that's no surprise
Yeah
I'm sorry about that
I push away cause dad never pulled me in
Floods of emotions thank god that I can swim
Traumatized from stories that never begin
Wish I could talk to the one they say is forgivin my sins

Cause there is too much pressure
In actin like I'm better
While feeling like I'm lesser
No gluing myself together
Cause you ain't give no effort
Cause you never cared ever
No gluing myself together
Cause you never cared ever

Looking in the mirror I should be blaming you
Pointing fingers cause what else am I to do
Always acting like you got something to prove
But honestly you just got me locked away up in this room
Only when you lonely do you come to visit
Maybe it's cause I'm the only one who gets it
Maybe you just need someone who only listens
Doesn't try to tell you what you should do different
I see you smile but I also see the pain attached
It's so easy for others who always say relax
All them tears down your face I know we stained from that
And all the memories that cycle no misplacing that
The emotions you going through have been heavy
And all the drive has been anything but steady
Just know I will help you if you just let me
And I'll be waiting right here until you ready