It's been a rough year
Shed way too many tears
Still standing here when the smoke clears
Back against the wall, numb to it all
Standing tall like Trayvon's Mom
And even tho the pressure on me, and it's feeling like the feds on me
Pour suttin for the dead homies
Can't do it on ya own is what my pops told me
Pour my soul in a song and it's all there
Just know I'm good money
Lost my brother and my sister in the in the same year
Having nightmares of pallbearers
Life Never Been A Crystal Stair
Freddy in my dreams but the pistol there
I'm paranoid, popped a XAN
Yea, the pain still there
I be damn
He had a thing for money and pretty strippers
Pedicures, from bad bitches
Tree Tree Cheese died a rich nigga
Died a rich nigga, cuz your spirit bigger
Don't wanna drown my tears in this brown liquor
I want to feel it when I'm Reminiscing
Appreciate the beauty even when we suffer
The Pain hell but it made us tougher
Ain't enough substances to numb us
I feel alone it's been a cold summer
Fentanyl in the veins slow the heart rate
Kill us slow, up the murder rate
I shoulda stayed longer that day
Who knew it be last time we'd conversate
Do anything just to see your face
Do anything to see you radiate, my nigga
Pain hit different when you run towards it
Can't afford to ignore it
Ain't no shelter when storms hit
Grab the lesson and reinforce it
Use Alchemy to transform it
My ugly beautiful I formed this song with
Shot me a text 'fore she got in that ride,
Told me she love me then crashed into a semi
Died three times had to be revived
Permanent brain damage, TBI killed the old you
And it kills me to understand the new you
Its f*cking with me
Cause the new you ain't nothing like the old you
Ain't come to pops funeral
The old you, woulda popped you
And 'though it hurts, I understand too