DEVEN - the deep end (ukulele demo) Lyrics

Thrown into the deep end, not a lifeguard in sight
They think I don't need one, and I thought they were right
But swimming through all this doesn't come naturally
Although everybody else seems to float easily
I didn't get the memo, I thought this was the start
But here I am learning that I can't play the part
I'm drowning in their voices, unsure of expectations
I don't know what I should do to swim my own way through
They keep telling me that I should just be alright
But every time I flap my arms, I feel like a neon light
Nobody taught me how to float, and not drown
In the deep end
I hear sirens, but they think it's just me
Drowning in a cage of insecurities
I want the sounds to stop and let me breathe
But all they'll say is that I should just
Leave
I didn't get the memo, I thought this was the start
But here I am learning that I can't play the part
I'm drowning in their faces, and falling into pieces
I gasp for air, but cannot breathe, and all they do is stare at me
They don't see my struggle and think I'm just alright
But every time I gasp for air, I look like a neon light
Nobody taught me how to float, and not drown
In the deep end
Why do I try so hard to stay afloat
When I'm the one being dragged down the moat
Would it be easier to just stop?
Let myself
Finally rest
But I can't let them hold me back
I'm gonna find my own way that will work at last
I'll drown out their voices with my favorite songs
And remind myself that this shouldn't last for long
I'll take a big deep breath so it gets easier
To swim through this water with all of my normal fears
I'll try my best to learn to float, and not drown
In the deep end