Disguises - Summer Lyrics

We stormed the beach like soldiers marching towards their fate
Uncertain sleep and bruising feet
Consequence of youth stripped from its sheets
And I know the streets we stumbled down look enticing as you hit the ground
Faded blues turn to grey, silence has its way

And I just want to matter when all is said and done
I feel my body aging and know that's not enough
I've took apart the mystery, it's easier to run
This isn't who I thought I'd be when I turned twenty-one, uninspired and undone

We dug our graves with memories of booming life
Shake my hand and wave goodbye
Settle into routines groomed with time
In the house I learned to hold my tongue and to take the bludgeoning head on
But how much can we take before we learn our place?

And I just need to matter when all is said and done
I feel my body aging, I know that's not enough
I've took apart the mystery, it's easier to run
This isn't who I thought I'd be when I turned twenty-one, uninspired and undone

(Sold off to the oldest man
Have a child before you're old enough to meet the demands, before you're
Shipped off to some foreign land
Crack a smile and hold a gun to those you don't understand)

(I tried everything to put this all behind
Restart with new meaning, but I lost my light)

(Sold off to the oldest man
Have a child before you're old enough to meet the demands, before you're
Shipped off to some foreign land
Crack a smile and hold a gun to those you don't understand, while they were
Sold off to the oldest man
Had a child before they're old enough to meet the demands, before they're
Shipped off to some foreign land
Crack a smile and hold a gun to those you don't understand)

And I just need to matter when all is said and done
I feel my body aging, doing hours in the sun, uninspired and undone

It's never enough