Dleeted Ego - Societal Pressures Lyrics

Please tell me where my passions gone
Tell me where my mind has gone
Tell me why I never pick my phone up I been all alone
Tell me why this writer's block is blocking what I'm thinking
Thoughts are dripping like the ink is
I've been blocking negativity like I was playing defense
I've been sparring with my demons
I've been falling down the path of
Self destruction what's the meaning
Damn my soul I gotta clean it
Pot of gold no I don't need it
Put my neck inside a rope I been hanging from a ceiling
I'm not talking about me currently
Who I used to be I had to euthanize that part of me
I cut the weight like ufc
I never could have grown if I never chose to plant the seed
I plant it very carefully
You say you always cared for me
But you were never there for me
You only stay just close enough so you can get some change from me
So when the money comes I'll give you my two cents it's make believe
Me myself and I that's the trilogy that's been with me
When I had no confidence and self belief I still proceed
Cuz life is way too short to give a f*ck about what someone thinks
They think they're trying to wake you up but they've been stuck inside a dream
Following society
Get a normal job cuz you're not talented enough
You got a couple hundred plays and only bout a hundred bucks
Cuz a dream is just dream and a dream is not enough
You need to come back to reality it seems you're not in touch
So you're saying f*ck a passion
Don't pursue what you love
So you're saying f*ck happiness
It ain't happening huh
I think you got it f*cked up
I think one day you had a passion
Didn't turn out the way you want
Over time you just said f*ck it and stopped believing in yourself
So now you're beating up yourself
So now you think that everyone is a reflection of yourself
You're regret is really showing
I'll believe in me first and then you'll think that I'm the dopest
I'm like Moses part the seas and part the oceans
Part what anybody thinks from what I think I'm way too focused
Destination seems so far away but really it's the closest
If you think about it be about it
Said I couldn't walk up hill I'm climbing up the tallest mountain
F*ck the time don't try to count it
They don't see the vision need some vi-sine think your visions shrouded
Blinded by the normalcies if it is not a common thing society will probably doubt it
Sunny days but always clouded
Someones always gunna f*ck your day up and that's really common
Its only up to you to stop it
Everything that happens in your life is what's reacted to
Don't give it a reaction and your day will go by really smooth
It's something that I've learned to do
It's something I've adapted to
Conceal my energy or they will eat it like a snack or two
Not everyone deserves your presents
Like my name was saint Nick you been naughty hope you get the message
Soul is really priceless but your soul just might be inexpensive
Overdose on self belief so every word is Ineffective
When you have this confidence
Before you get acknowledgement
Everyone's a f*cking critic
Head so far inside your ass
I hope that you get lost in it
I am always authentic
Think I am conceded really you're the one that's egocentric
Ego so much bigger than your brain that shits pathetic
You can edit shit on Instagram cant edit where your head is
You can't Photoshop reality it looks like you don't get it
But I'm focused on myself so really none of that is relevant
The ink is seeping through the canvas mastering my penmanship