Down Again - Grey Lyrics

Pretty eyes and her mother's smile
She was stunning and I could tell by how she looked at me
That we were thinking the same thing
What a perfect beginning
But she couldn't see the hell inside of me
The hell inside of me
Now I'm choking on my words
I take it all back
Never thought I'd say that
Praying for a god to
Come and save my soul
But I'm not sure if I mean it
I was f*cked up
And too young
There's something f*cking wrong with me
I think maybe
I've always been a shade of grey
Everything is pain and everything I hate lives inside of me
Hypocrite piece of shit I know what's right but I can't do it
Saw myself as a savior with a golden crown
But couldn't see the skeletons piling all around
Swore I loved you I swore that I'd fix all the pain
I'd say I love you tell a lie it sounded all the same
I never meant to hurt you I'll take all the blame
I'd say I'm sorry but there's nothing left for me to change
Run away run away get the f*ck away from me
There is grey inside my brain a seeping seething disease