Drent - Ghost: My Ode To Giving Up Lyrics

Watching snow fall, people keep flaking
It's aggravating, explaining I'm appalled
People don't call, nowadays we just txt
It's easier to disconnect than get involved
I'm somewhat distraught, watching what I say
Rubbing you the wrong way, pretending to brush it off
I've lost my sense of self, finding fast
Crossing your mind doesn't mean we crossed paths
Asking for help, you can't seem to embrace it
It's the only time we have a conversation
Blowing smoke... I'm disillusioned
When it's drawn out, I draw my own conclusions
I push people away... they're cancerous
I call digits then they ask "who is this?"
It's hard to commit, since I'm treated poorly
You want the attention but choose to ignore me
Surely I'll watch myself drown in nerve
Asking if what they want is what I deserve
Constant worry... trying to find words to convey
If you don't stay, hey... I expect to get hurt
That's worse than standing my ground
I find in my absence, people don't stick around
Sounds alienating, loneliness and dating
Never making first moves... I'm always hesitating
Saying to myself, "I'm gonna be alright"
Agoraphobia's why I stay home all night
I confront my demons but it's inadvertent
Seeking validation and words of encouragement
But I'm insecure, lacking confidence
Cam said its hard to build up a trust on broken promises
So I'm out chasing ghosts
Somewhat torn between self loathe and self growth
I've ever been in love, maybe once or twice
Been told too many times, "you're too nice"
Whatever... I guess that's the way it goes
I'd rather be in a relationship than be alone
Despite life's comprised of compromises
I'm vibrant but people think I'm awkward and quiet
Relationships are like my job
I'll meet you halfway but forget to calculate the mileage
Never go the distance, it ain't worth it
We hide our feelings... pretending we're assertive
Now I'm suddenly certain
Opposites attract but the fact is you're still the same person
I'm happy inside... less happy on dates
I either persevere or perseverate
I hate when people don't reciprocate
That's what separates you taking the time from the time that you take
I make the effort, really it's coerced
We're all shallow but completely immersed, in who we are and what we envision
I'm not afraid to die, my whole life I've been non-existent
Staring at the wall, knowing all too well
That the reason you don't like me is cus' I hate myself
I'm not afraid to die... I hope
I almost gave up, giving up your ghost