Drent - Sine Qua Non Lyrics

Dear you
I wish you were me
The world spins madly on kinetic energy
My chakras disperse in a different universe
I'm always second guessing why you never put me first
I placed my crown on the head of a mistress
It's easy having sex, it's harder sharing interests
Constant contact, constant fighting
I'll change who I am before I change what I'm writing
My third eye coincides how you are
I left my George Mason hoodie beside your mason jars
Jars of clay, filled with grains of salt
F*ck patriarchy just say "it's your fault"
I gave you my all, that wasn't sine qua non
Being together felt the same as being alone
Going through my phone, checking your messages
I'm your boyfriend, not a friend with benefits
Ironically, you're a bully and oppressor
You can't stay single than say we're together
Small talk, my throat's ambiguous
We weren't a couple, just an isolated incident
Leaving fingerprints, my hands are made of spite
What gets you by... do you sleep all through the night?
Cus' I don't... sleep's an impartial absence
A lotta shits changed, since I released Fragments
I have chest pain, heart palpitations
Comparing lengths of time to the durations
Depressed, copious, my solar plexus is vacant
To say, "I'm overweight" feels like an understatement
Loving my body feels like sacrilege
I want results but I'll settle for averages
Fast food establishments, subtract additives
But if I feel shitty... will I use laxatives?
I don't wanna feel down... I don't wanna grow up
I threw my eggs in baskets where I throw up
I'm sick and tired of writing the same old shit
But it's easy sharing blame than taking ownership
Constant battles, rooted deep beneath the surface
Breaking the habits just a daily occurrence
So before I walk away, behind closed doors
I'll sign letters to myself, sincerely yours
ME