These thoughts make me feel uneasy
Now I'm feeling sort of queasy
They told me it was never meant to be easy
But sometimes I just wish someone out there would hear me
Started good with a bang and then it was a miss
They told me I could never be as good at this
Now I'm stuck with this new persona
Where love and money can't keep me sober
Could be good, It could be bad
One gave me glory, the other made me mad
Hit and missing, can't break the curse
These drugs got me spinning but I keep feeling worse
On my ones I bun 3.5s
Getting high, yeah I like the vibes
Vodka in a cup at half past 4
You come in to my room and I'll be filling it with more
It's a new dawn but my hope is all lost
I may have won but my next one is the cost
I've always gotta change it, I'm never gonna make it
First time but they making me regret shit
Got a new chance, got a new sense of style
Might as well get used to it, it's gonna be a while
Eyes red from the shit we've been smoking
One day I'll make it yeah here's me hoping
Every day I'm working but I always get the block
Try to keep my mind clear but I see the clock
And I can't stop, it's like the hell inside is urging
All the stress, all the agony inside is merging
I'm never right
Juice, if you hear me please give me advice
I can't write to save my life
People out there still surprised
When they find I look up to the knife
Working hard into the night
It don't have to be wrong, it can always be right
But a lamp can't function if it doesn't have a light
Some days I'll be feeling like a model
Next day, I'll be drinking from the bottle
I can't seem to grasp all this violence and anger
Cash money yeah I need a banker
I've been feeling bad but I don't know why
It's like it gets foggier the harder I try
Now and then I need some time on my own
You know I work hard, blue light 'til dawn
Yeah, Aye
You know I work hard all night, all long
You know I work hard blue light 'til dawn
I'ma come back, I'ma make my mama proud
Show them how I bump this, not one to doubt
Only got one shot, I'ma make this life count
Got the whole club jumping, you know we make it loud
Feel alive, look up to the sky
And drive, drive, drive into the night
These thoughts make me feel uneasy
Now I'm feeling sort of queasy
They told me it was never meant to be easy
But sometimes I just wish someone out there would hear me