Dtrue - Scarlett Lyrics

Put that gun to your head
Take that knife to your wrist
Tears drip on the floor
And you clenching your fist
You was always depressed
But you'd never admit
You just stuck in your past
It be like an assist
Trynna see through the fog
Couldn't get through the mist
I know you cut everyday
But you never commit
You never gave up on yourself so why the f*ck would you now
You carry all this baggage on your back it's weighing you down
You just trynna be somebody make your family proud
Or maybe you ain't ever had one ain't nobody around
I feel you
I said I feel you so
Even if you took your life you'd never take your soul
At first your heart was broken now you frozen ain't it cold
Some people get to be like me and never had to know
The broken families the tragedy when doors are closed
No supper on the table that's just something I suppose
And everytime you get the chance you take the lonely road
Nobody understands that you ain't had the chance to grow
The pain of being raped and now you feeling like a ghost
Traumatic past can't let it pass you never let it show
You see I grew up in the burbs I had to stay in school
Never had no money problems never got abused
A f*cking spoiled kid wit everything he had to lose
My life's a f*cking lie but I could never tell the truth
I been addicted to a f*cking life I can't describe
I was screaming in my pillow wishing I would die
I can't go back in my time the skeletons I had to hide
I've spent the last seven years trynna make it right
You see I raped myself
And now I hate myself
How could I be Dtrue
When I'm fake myself
I used to hurt myself in sexual ways for other people
The shit was like a drug straight to the brain without a needle
And now I'm feeling sore and I ain't talking bout an eagle
Record myself on tape and send it that shit was illegal
My life's a f*cking movie scene that wasn't meant for regal
But if I gave up now then would never see the sequel
It's true

I ain't ever thought I would make it this far
We all just trynna find who we are
All I ever seen in my life is Scarlett
All I ever seen in my life is Scarlett
I ain't ever thought I would make it this far
We all just trynna find who we are
All I ever seen in my life is Scarlett
All I ever seen in my life is Scarlett