DTVM - Disconnected Lyrics

Yeah
I been feeling disconnected from society
Been trying to stop for years but I keep breaking my sobriety
Despite the fact my boss could fire me
I'm tired of me and all this evil that keep creeping up inside of me
Or maybe out of me
I lie about it even though my wife is telling me don't lie to me
So she keep doubting me entirely
And I would do the same
I mean I do the same
So I would be insane
To blame her why should she desire me
When I desire all these wicked fantasies like hourly
I feel the shame I cannot say I've ever been that proud of me
I try to tell myself the truth but I don't hear it louder please
Yeah
I try to tell myself the truth
But I don't hear it
At least not until I slip and get the passion out of me
Then I'm just sitting there a mess nothing but regrets clouding me
I cry so hard and get so hot my tears evaporate and make a cloud of me
And all my insecurities that shout at me
And rain back down on me
I'm living cowardly
The devil tower me
His rein it showers me
And does it sourly
I know the Bible says I should be clay
Then why is it the devil making gorgeous pottery inside of me to counter me
And all my efforts trying to have some self respect and honor me
And after all the struggle I remain so ornery
In loving all the nastiness and naughtiness that's in my head and on the screen
My soul want's out of me
Yeah
I want out of me
Uh
My soul want's out of me
Cause evil's been a god to me
Even though I got my God in me guiding me
Man there's got to be good deep down inside of me
But that's only one side of me
If you saw the bad you'd probably scream at the sight of me
I'm sick of waiting for growth wish I could lay sod in me
I used to weep when I slipped now it's simply a sigh to me
I got a holy water leak I feel like God got to solder me
Getting numb and it's odd to me
Cause I feel like I been praying up to God almost constantly
But I still got all this spiritual poverty
Was I not praying properly
Was I not paying my bill so God is taking back his property
He told me just abide in me
I really tried but probably wasn't good enough so now he's saying bye to me
And letting Satan take a bite of me
In spite of me and all the times I pleaded that he'd please start sterilizing me
Start purging out the lies in me
And all the evil that lies in me
I don't know how to die to me
I don't know how to die to me
I don't know how to die to me
I can't do it
I don't know how to die to me
I cannot do it
Feeling disconnected from society
Why hasn't God set you free
Why hasn't God set you free
Why hasn't God set you free
Why hasn't God set you-