Duane Jackson - Masterpiece Lyrics

Why is it i never get what i feel is deserved
There aint nobody trustworthy so i deal with the hurt
I been stuck in a pattern thats been to real to learn
So i try turn it to the music an hope you feel the words
I been asking myself, am i good enough
Building up a mean work ethic, but is my look enough
Im feelin like i aint meet the standards, an im shooken up
Cause i just want a love of my own like baby look at us
We can build an empire, travel like we never have
It gets lonely out here lookin for my better half
Im lost, everyone im feelin always sets me back
Cause i show love before i realize they never have
Its f*cked up, but i guess thats how its meant to be
Gotta live my life alone with music as my centerpiece
This positions one i really thought id never see
But here i am, praying god'll help an try an set me free
These emotions is raw, im trying leave em behind
But before i do i need em defined
Cause from everything i see in your eyes, im dealing with lies
An its sad, cause i really cant believe that you tried
I gave the best of me, i adapted everything to set the scene
I broke away from people that i cared about an left a dream
For you, cause i thought you was worth it
I pictured us together baby i thought you was perfect
I put you on a pedestal cause i thought you deserved it
An everything was going good so i thought this was working
Now i see im wrong, my vision wasnt clear enough
Thought that i could see through the fog, but now its clearin up
An all that i can see is the lies, i feel scared as f*ck
That i wont never come out the same, now my fear is love
Too many situations have changed, who i care to trust
An now im just a shell of the man that i feel i nearly was
Listen... it aint your fault, i was already sittin way to close to the edge
Like i aint know meant, people think my lifes great
But thats what no one'll get, its not always what it seems
Ive been hopeless at best
Attention doesnt equal happiness, i swear i thought it did too
A million people liking you will never change i miss you's
It'll never change i love you and i wish that you were here
It'll never bring that person in your life you wish was near
Theres only a few people that'll really bring you happiness
Your family your friends and the person you build magic with
Ive lost that, ability to love is what it cost and
I dont know what to do next, reality is off track
Im tryin find my way but, im scared that i never will
I invested too much in someone thats never real
I was head first like f*ck it you can laugh at me
I felt in love from the moment i heard her laugh it seems
Like i got a problem but really its just my passion speaks
I cant help but attach, thats my baggage see
We all got our problems this is the one thats after me
I fall for someone who makes me believe they match my speed
Then i realize they never did, the magic cease
All the cards fall to the ground, it goes back to me
Sittin here all by myself, just a tragic scene
Writing this verse that you hear, what a masterpiece