F.A.Q. Video (MV)

Lately I can't sleep, I've been under stress
My minds under pressure, my body needs rest
And I try to relax, slowly I'm counting my breaths
But no matter what, no how
I can't get from under this depth
I've got something to confess, lately I'm f*cking depressed
Waking up after noon like why bother getting dressed
Like the reflection of my room, both of us are a mess
Yet I go out and I'm looking my best
I put on a smile but don't you put my patience to the test
This is my house, you are a guest
And right now I'm not taking any request
I am the quiet type but lately
I've got too much weight to get off my chest
Like who would have guessed
I'd be at the edge of my desk
My ego is getting obsessed, full of regrets
But you get what you get and you don't get upset
And I'm getting it in, f*ck what they said
All of these voices they all in my head
All they keep doing is bringing me down
And they keep coming around like the demons outside of my bed
Seriously, every night they've been harassing me
Yo it's Blasphemy, but forreal
You should hear the questions they've been asking me
Like what the f*ck are you doing
And who the hell are you kidding, man
Why do you keep pursuing this pipe dream
When you don't have a back up plan
You keep thinking you can make it
Reality says that you don't have a chance
And you had your fifteen minutes on Youtube when you used to dance
So Duda forreal, f*ck how you feel
Who in the right mind's gone give you a deal
Who in the right mind will listen to you
When your music is so low with no mass appeal
Come keep it real, how are you ever gone stack up a mill
When you haven't begun to do shit with your life
And at the rate that you're going
Man you never will and that's real
Maybe too real and it's no surprise I can't sleep at night
When I'm terrified of my own demise
So much that I'm afraid to live my life
I'm living my life, but how would I know if I'm living it right?
I'm so insecure and my biggest fear is being named a failure overnight
So I claw and I fight
Yeah I give it my all every night
I sacrifice everything that I have
My pen and my pad, the words that I write
With so many paths in my sight
Do I turn left or should I break right
Or do I just go with the flow
Dip through the lows and hurdle the heights
No end in my sights
One hell of a price, my eyes on the prize
That's my silver lining
I walk towards the light
My demons and shadows all follow behind me
And once I get where I'm going, I don't expect no one to find me
I don't believe in achieving perfection
Just leaving directions of my perfect timing
I'm tired of being reminded of all my flaws
I've made some mistakes and broken some laws
One thing I can say is I learned from it all
Saw myself fall, picked myself up
So I don't give a f*ck what anybody says to me
This is my life
No one else is gonna paint the pictures of my destiny
So I trade tonight's rest and peace
In hopes one day I get to rest in peace
You see the recipe for success to me
Consist of more than my legacy
And lately my ego's been testing me
This lack of sleep has been stressing me
But there's no way I'm about to let self-doubt get the best of me
I follow my heart, do what I love and I always stay driven
But after some time it feels like my mind has become a prison
And I intertwine between being a hero and being a villain
And this is my story, this is my story
And I'm ready and willing to accept the call
So f*ck all the questions you ask me
Don't bother me, don't harass me
And don't talk to me about the past
This is more than my passion
My call to action, life everlasting
And when i get discouraged with myself
I just stick to the facts man
Yeah stick to the facts man
Yeah, stick to the facts man
I feel like I'm on a runaway train
On a one way track and
I'm not turning back
This is my life and before I lose it
All I wanna do with the time that I have
Is use it keep bringing you all this music