DWC - Dear Mama Lyrics

Dear mama I know it's been a while
Ever since Ethen died you ain't had the same smile
You ain't had the same happiness
Had the same joy
You lost a part of you the day you lost your lil boy
I get down on my knees pray for you every day
Ask God to give you strength and healing in every way
I wished me talked more or played how we play
You got a good man ma and this one here to stay
Dear mama promise you not alone
All this pain that you been feelin you not feelin on your own
This from my heart mama this realer than real
It's been two years I still don't understand what I feel
Don't get me started on how I feel when it rain
I close my eyes and see my brother and start feeling the pain
I even cry when I'm alone and I start hearing his name
Open my eyes and realize all I'm hearin is rain
Dear mama tell me what's goin on
You go out and have drinks
Then you end up not comin home
I know what exactly what you feelin inside
But when you drank you start thank them feelings eat you alive
Dear mama remember back in the day
When we played family feud til we struggled to stay awake
Or what about the times you used to take us on dates
I remember all the times even the ones I hate
Now that I'm older I cherish all of the good
You taught me about sex while we was watching the wood
Now I find myself praying for change
Wishing one day that you come home and start actin the same
Dear mama your kids are your biggest fans
I looked up to you way before any man
You taught me how to write how to read and wash my hands
I know that you woman but taught me to be a man
You taught me how to love, never taught me how to hate
You taught me how to man up and own up to mistakes
Dear mama it's July
The month that brought use pain
And took the sun up out the sky
Pain creeping in it's like I feel it taken over
Sometimes I question God and ask him when it will be over