Searching for some clarity nothing is repairing me
The drugs the girls and the mass amounts of therapy
I've got a laundry list of shit I know that I should've done
I ain't eat my meat so where the f*ck I get this pudding from
Said he got my back turns out that he was fronting
No evil here so witnesses are steady seeing nothing
Last time that I spazzed out they thought that I would back down
Running up knuckles dust hid the strap inside the stash house
Levels in this hell
When you don't know yourself
The answers there
So be prepared
But yo I'm back on my bullshit
Mad with a full grin
Dashing to class I'm a spaz on this school shit
Smart enough to have questions about every move I make
Dumb enough think it out still act reckless and make mistakes
Strong enough to stack up weights and lift all
Weak enough to rack up pain from impulse
Help me help me save me from myself please
I don't truly need the help but if you care about me tell me
Autumn is kind of jealous from how hard that I fell leaves
Blow away special k isn't always healthy
I glance in the mirror and I'm still haunted by my past
I still remember the day I saw my momma crying last
Enrolled in school I made a promise I can pass
Got back into rap because they're monetizing trash
Chasing cheese has gotten souls lost inside the trap
At least they fed the mouse I chose better routes to optimize the craft
It's still rest in peace to Nick and it's rest in peace to Dre
I hope when you went that you didn't feel the pain
Shit we do its just another factor in the game
My bro Dave said the cool ones always pass away
I rep the north so it's always free my brother dirty bird
He was gone before I even found out where he went
Thank your minds for the time to listen to my wordy words
You're always there when I'm self aware and need to vent