EETH - falling/fading.wav Lyrics

Reality's falling around me
And you are not grounding
I'm looking around and I don't recognize my surroundings
So how do I find me
Like the end of a movie I'm fading to black
I don't know how to get everything that I used to have back
Now I'm falling off track
Why's that?

I'm at a place in my life where I'm getting hurt
Everytime I start to think it's the brink of a meltdown
It's hard to speak, hard to breathe, hard to frown
I'm feeling nothing, man do ya'll get it now?
Everyone expects the most from me
Everyone expects a toast from me
I gotta put down my glass and go pick up some glasses
I'm not seeing clearly
You still don't believe me
I should be an actor
I'm putting on shows every day
Just to keep all the people who might care about me at bay
No I still don't got nothing to say

Leave me alone for a little bit
Too long I've been in the thick of it
Starting to get real sick of it
Watching my friends throwing fits every time that their ego is hit
And they crying 'bout boys who won't give them attention
I'm sorry but didn't I mention reality's falling around me
That shit is astounding but nobody cares
Or just maybe I keep it inside of me
I'm playing hide and seek with all my problems
And I'm tryna find me some time just to stop being scared of me

"EETH isn't texting me he's never treating me fairly"
Just hold on one second I'll be with you guys momentarily
I'm fighting demons so stop being mad at me
If you got problems I'll give you directions to Hades
And maybe you guys can resolve it
Or maybe I'll whip out my wallet and give you a buck
So that you can go buy me a f*ck
I ain't giving them out I'm so sorry
Your bitch ass is straight out of luck
And I'm sorry if my love is tough
But my circle is small
Every person inside it I trust
But that ain't enough

Like Brady the qualifications intangible
Drafting the prospects that turn into animals
Drinking up dubs like I opened a Danimals
Can't carry more it's already a handful
I'd say that it's ample

But reality's falling around me
And you are not grounding
I'm looking around and I don't recognize my surroundings
So how do I find me
Like the end of a movie I'm fading to black
I don't know how to get everything that I used to have back
Now I'm falling off track
Why's that?
Why's that?
Why's that?

My life is a movie but it's not a comedy
Go buy a ticket but don't feel bad for me
Half of the things that I do are to please everybody around me
Now why are you crying?
No why are you crying?
There's so many better things you could be doing
Instead you're just tearing up inside your room
And a part of me thinks you're just looking for sympathy
I hate to break it, you're not gonna hear from me
I got priorities, this shit is boring me, wish there were more of me
These days I just can't afford to breathe

And everything comes with a caveat
Everytime I seem to have a thought
Somebody speaks up and tells me that I cannot
Have an opinion on matters that clearly affect me
And they think that they are protecting me
How about next time you don't even mention me
More than that, can you try not to remember me?
'Cause I will forget you
And I wouldn't have let you into my life
If I knew how your dumbass would act
It's a friendship that's not gonna last
That I couldn't care less if the two of us keep it in tact
And I wouldn't react and I wouldn't go back
No I wouldn't go-
No I wouldn't go back
Oh you're still here
Haven't I said enough?
You just think you're so tough
I can tell you if I opened up just a little bit more
I would scare you away anyway
So you might as well leave
Please allow me to show you the door
'Cause I ain't showing you more
I ain't showing you more

Reality's falling around me
And you are not grounding
I'm lookin' around and I don't recognize my surroundings
So how do I find me
Like the end of a movie I'm fading to black
I don't know how to get everything that I used to have back
Now I'm falling off track
Why's that?