efemel - Slightly Happy People Lyrics

There's a blanket laid out
On the fire escape
There's a record
On the turntable to play
There's a certain quiet
That breathes through the days
There's a little thread of weed smoke
Dangling in front of your face
Now if I'm sleeping
Or if I'm awake
I'm always dreaming, always screaming
About time I couldn't save
But everything there is or has ever been
Is laying dormant in this moment
Waiting for us to begin

My swollen tongue is talking cheap
Of petty fantasies to keep
But I grow restless with catharsis
In the middle of the week
So here we are
And here we fall
Here's the writing on the wall:
You will be happy
It won't be fully
But maybe slightly

I'm feeling lonesome
I'm missing home
I live in fear of thoughts I have when I'm alone
I try to fight it
I go outside
I text my friends to let them know I'm still alive
But when the brain black fire rises high enough to murder me
In the back room
A gloomy sad sack
With only two ways to be

One's the crushing weight
Of staring down a certain fate
The spider in the bathtub
The hare that leads the race
The other's aching to be seen
The deformation of a dream
A clawing question
A restless dawning
When did I get so f*cking boring?