Shades Video (MV)

I spend long times looking out the window
On my life though the shades they want to fade
I've arrived not running from the moment
But do I know this?
Or is it rationalized?
I'm kinda nervous to find my purpose within this circus
Try to unearth all the reasons why I try to desert this
Barely answer all of the questions that are posed
Better to ask them and write the process within this prose
Better to dance and get moving than focus in on my toes
Let chance flow through me and go smoothly into the unknown
It seems so improbable as much as I'd like to believe this
Pleasure is in fools gold oh how my eyes do deceive it's
Hard to measure value when you're lost in your perception
When everything I see requires some form of correction
Are we cursed to walk the earth in search of satisfaction
When at best we might be blessed with an impermanent distraction
Most days I can't find any purpose
Does it really matter is it even worth it
Most days I don't know how to feel
Like does it really matter is it even real
It goes on forever
Bigger shows
Warmer weather
Expensive clothes
And patent leather it won't ever make me whole
Won't make me feel better ohh