Eka Aether - Fallen Leaves Lyrics

I found an old backup
It came from my emotionally distorted past
Am I still a child?
We were wandering in an ocean of fallen leaves
I wanted to scream but my lips were sealed
I wanted to confess but was afraid you would leave
I could have talked back then
We had no hurry
And could fix everything well
But I have wasted every occasion
And three simple words are now lost
I am writing these letters from places
That we've never been together
And I'm becoming terrorized
Just to take a journey through my mind
Am I still a child?
Hiding encrypting misleading
In so many layers of different realities
No light can pass them all
In this labyrinth I am paralysed
Leaves have now reached my neck
But in 20 years you never came back
I've tried to replace you, but I can't