Electric Vyle - Body Scars Lyrics

I have a bruise on the surface, of my heart. It hurts cause, if i go deeper
Its a curse, i'm going to disperse myself from you

Take a look at my eyelids
And you wonder why is
It sliced open
I cant close em
Afraid to sleep to see and dream future me
And not make it become reality
When i was younger i fell took a crack to my head
Then i was rushed to the hospital bed
And took stitches to where i bled, to fix it
But they missed that, i had permanent damage and it was my anger that I couldn't manage
To take control of
I went back to the doctor out of love
Took his head and shoved
It into a staple gun
I asked him wont this be fun
You took my emotions from me
Because you didn't fix me fully
So i pull the trigger and run

I have these body scars
That's what makes me, me
Thats what makes me bleed
Color
For you to see
What these scars
Have done to me
Personally
Each one of them
Is a stepping stone
That i had to fight
Through
To get here
And i know now
This is just the beginning
And i'm not quitting

Check out whats on arm
I don't call this harm
To myself
When i was 11
Back in grade 7
Everyone was Erasing their skins
For a challenge
I tried to erase my existence
For some balance
I did that shit everyday for a week
And the teacher kicked me out before i could speak
I mean what can i say
It was cool to see my skin rub away
And watch it bleed
I didn't grief
I put it up for display
To show how much of the game i played
And now its just a scar on my body today

I have these body scars
That's what makes me, me
Thats what makes me bleed
Color
For you to see
What these scars
Do to me
Personally
Each one of them
Is a stepping stone
That i had to fight
Through
To get here
And i know now
This is the beginning
And i'm not quitting

This thing on my neck
Is what keeps me in check
From an accidental suicidal death
Like a dog leash
Because i am a deadly beast
My wrists hurt and the pain increased
I'm not the one to complain please
I'm 19
Yrs old, i sit and ask why me
Ill probably
Cut them off will see
And Do you see my smile
It was a gift a while
Back
When i took a whack
To my mouth
And blood started to poor out
I look like the joker
Just look a little closer