Tears Video (MV)

It's so sad
I listen to songs that catch me in my feels
But cant let my emotions peel
From my skin, shed then heal
Put my emotions into motion
I want to drown in an ocean
Of my own tears
Why is this so hard for me
Is it cause I'm not sad constantly
If i go to deep then I'm depressed
I just wanna cry so i feel refreshed
Is this what makes me all stressed
I wanna cry
When a have a sense of loneliness inside
I am deprived of what I want to show on my outside

I wanna have tears
Is that so hard for me to hear
I wanna have tears
Brain says not in front of peers
I wanna have tears
Emotions turning into fears

I don't know if it will come to this
But when death hits
My close relatives
Will I feel a deficit
Or feel the opposite
Laugh and not cry cause I cant cope with shit.
Thats pretty f*cked up I should feel remorse for it.
But I don't
The only time I've shown tears
Is when my anger sheers
This emotion
Hits hard
I have a notion
Let go of the drops have it flowing
Down my face
I'm look out of place
Angry and crying
I'm just trying
To hold them back
Because I am all wack

I wanna have tears
Is that so hard for me to hear
I wanna have tears
Brain says not in front of peers
I wanna have tears
Emotions turning into fears

Crying doesn't mean i will just break down
But build up my self a new form in the ground
That doesn't mean
It cant be
Joyfully, expressed
I don't have to be upset and stressed
Its an emotion within me
I hold back and seize
So nobody can see
Who I truly am
Now I'm opening up breaking my dam
I feel like a new man.
Showing my sensitive side
And not having to run and hide
This time I can cry without feeling less pride

I just wanted tears
I can have that without fears
Now I have tears
I feel blessed that I'm here