EMMANUELLL - Patience Lyrics

They lost patience with me
Thought they was waiting with me
But I guess they ain't staying with me
But what if I make it, will they come back
Came back for the cheese so they make them a rat
This silence so loud but I can't react
Back of my head is where I sat
Writing my pain jus to put on a track
Now they turning up to my pain
They begging for more, now it's weight on my back
The pressure tryna maintain
Showing my scars tell the world what I lack
Show my hurt then they give me more fame
But I just want the money, I'll stay where I'm at
Showing proof I'm not the one to blame
I know it's coming when they learn my name
Tryna smile but I'm stuck in the rain

I got tired of hanging with lames
I changed my position, Taught them how to go get it
I know with rap money, the fame coming with it
But I can't go insane like the rest tryna end it

Tell my people invest before you try to spend it
If they leeching on me, bitch, goodbye, I good riddance
They wasn't same when you died, kept my distance
Lost my brother, now I gotta cop him on a pendant
Ion think he'll have it any other way
I'm forgetting your voice, it's a haze

Dreaming about you every other day
Other days, I can't sleep, it's a maze
Trying to get out this trap full of hurt, but I know it's a phase
But I've been saying this for years, now I think I'm caught in a blaze
Caught in temptation the heat of my rage

Purging

Hoping this shit with my niggas can fix all the problems
Never been the type to put my pain in a bottle
Can't drink it away, so I drown in my sorrow
Put on a mask just to hide that I'm hollow
My soul in society can't be reattached
The energy I give can't really be matched
Even with scars, show my heart with the patch
I think I'm rare out this batch

My generation full on temptation and hate
We so impatient, can't keep conversation
We ain't got time to waste, we ain't got time to wait
Cuz we see how we struggled in the past
So young, but we feel if we can't be rich right now then the struggle gon' forever last

They lost patience with me
Thought they was waiting with me
But I guess they ain't staying with me
But what if I make it, will they come back
Came back for the cheese so they make them a rat
This silence so loud but I can't react
Back of my head is where I sat
Writing my pain jus to put on a track
Now they turning up to my pain
They begging for more, now it's weight on my back
The pressure tryna maintain
Showing my scars tell the world what I lack
Show my hurt then they give me more fame
But I just want the money, I'll stay where I'm at
Showing proof I'm not the one to blame
I know it's coming when they learn my name
Tryna smile but I'm stuck in the rain

I can't lie about the times I was ignorant I miss it
Didn't see we was struggling too worry bout dishes
Hoping I got some new shoes was my only wishes
Never worried about presents or trees during Christmas
Told em save all that money just to get outta debt

You saw me at my lowest the first time we met
So you drew up a picture and left it at that
Thinking I could never afford you, now we keep it cordial I don't have to break a sweat
No breaking my back, cause I got it now I don't got to use it on you or the rest
Never noticed that you was really like the rest You turned from my peace to a pest

Spend the rest of that time just looking for love I ain't worried about lust or the sex
Man, life is a mess
Right now I can't get up to save my life
My brother dream only reason I fight
Cause he wanted this for me, I told him I might
Doing this for him is only right
While doing that bring success to my family

This how was hard work, not randomly
They hatin' cause I work, they ain't standin' to me