Emri - Missing You Lyrics

Yeah i want to dedicate this song to my oldest daughter Amari
Hi princess
I say its been to long yeah
Im thinking about you so I made this song
Cant help but think about all the time its been since daddys gone
So many miles away just to visit you at home
I can't wait til you get home
I say its been to long yeah
Im thinking about you so I made this song
Cant help but think about all the time its been since daddys gone
So many miles away just to visit you at home
I can't wait til you get home
I miss you and I love you
Im crying tears while I'm writing this just thinking of you
But I just had to let you know your daddy fighting for you
So when this day here come to past
And I make us a new song
Im thanking God for the past
They don't understand the pain that i been through
Imagine waking without your son or daughter next to you
I then shed so many tears
Its already been three years
Im steady making these payments I can get caught up in rears
Conversations that I had with your mom over the years
I guess they went to deaf ears because it still couldn't bring you here
Left me begging just to have her
Keep me stuck here with this fear
Wanted to kidnap my own daughter thought about it every year
So i had to pray to God he grab the wheel and come and steer
Had the Devil working on me I was blind to what was clear
I know when it thunderstorms that it sunshines when it clears
At first I couldn't talk about it
It took time for me to get here
I only do this for my daughter losing time every year
And all the memories you then cost from the time with my kid
Aint no second you can't see me
My features stuck in my kids I'm feeling like abraham I had to sacrifice a kid
I had to think about it
I had time to grow up out it
Thought talking to your mother was the right way to go about it
But instead i got papers at the front door
They from Family Children Support
But before i hand them this money i was always here support
Putting money in your account making trips 13 hours there and back
Now can you tell me what kind of dad would do that
No matter what you say it just took a man to do that
No matter what our status is don't use your child to strike back
See this the energy you gave me now I'm proud to fight back
So many times when i ask can my daughter come back
So ima take it to these courts and I aint worried about that
Cant go another day without her
Im just worried about that
To have to take her through these courts
Naw you aint worried about that
I guess somethings will never change I include people in that
To take a daughter from her Father whats the equal in that
See Im close to solving a puzzle she the piece that I'm missing
I just want my daughter to know that she the love i been missing
All them nights i sheaded tears because it weigh on my spirit
But now i gotta thank the Lord he gave the strength that was missing
I feel i can see it I know that day is coming
I say a day that i been chasing for so long
Mentally saying that I'm straight but in the head it had me gone
Had me thinking about my actions and all the things that i did wrong
But I had to realize I'm the victim in this song
If you left it up to me I wouldnt of never left the state
But we got our own problems Never know whats on your plate
But i just had to keep it real If I never kept it straight
I never had you out the deal but i was cool with how it played
Only wanted to be a father
Just be there for my daughter
But you took that blessing from me
And ran with it like a hostage
Nothing that we had going on should have been a blockage
I'm Just here to tell you
You was wrong you should have stopped it