It's
Whatever
My way of detoxing from the pain is getting intoxicated
But it's like I'm giving my time away
I got no time to waste
I know I can die today
Should I go by Rapper Nazzy or by ENV0UX
I'm undecided, ayy
Shit, I'm undecided, ayy
Shit, I'm bout to smoke a pound They only go as far as you allow
I know, gotta watch who you around
He said it feel like that he losing out
I know, throw my hoodie on inside out
On a mission I've been in route
Back to back, I just need a time out
Can't afford to throw in a towel
Cause if I do, they treat me like a clown
I can't lie, I'm tryna make it out
Uncle said I gotta break this chain Mama said I really got the sound
Shawty got her feet up on the dash
Hair flowing, music banging loud
Tryna find a way to get it fast
I ain't really tryna humble down, no, no, no
Cause I'm tryna be worldwide
I ain't got no soul ties
I ain't linked with no guys
So close to that goal line
Cross T's, dot both I's
I'm just tryna be
I'm just tryna be worldwide, like woah, woah, woah
But for what though? Might as well scratch all that cause I'm bout to contradict everything anyway
You know what I said, I mean it Look
I just put all of my feelings inside of this backwood
I never cared
We aren't so different but we not alike
Shit I only trust em' long as they in my sight
I ran out of love to give
I can't get attached, I'm desensitized
I'm fresh off the pad, made the pen bleed
Tryna break the cycle, tryna make time, uh
You wouldn't like me when I'm sober
Cause I don't like it when I'm sober
Relapsing only time I get closure Would rather be high when they f*ck me over
Living life like so what?
When you taking my soul, huh
Cause I don't got the strength to end it
But I don't got the strength to keep living
Doing it for my daughter ain't enough
And doing it for myself ain't enough
And doing it for my fam ain't enough
And doing it for my fans ain't enough
Been in a long battle with myself And this ain't me crying out for no help
Cause they could care less about me anyway
I know I could see the grave any day
I think bout the niggas I lost
And really that seem like a better way
I'm ready to go, no I'm not afraid Shit, all this shit fake to me anyway
This my thoughts when I be off drugs
This me tryna take the pain away
But really since I can't ignore it I'd rather record it
It's my part of healing, it ain't just a phase
I'm just tryna take the pain
I'm just tryna take the pain away
I'm just tryna take the pain
I'm just tryna take the pain away
I just wanna take the huh
I just wanna take the huh
I just wanna take the pain away
So, I'm detoxing