Eridus - Jadis Lyrics

Reacting I feel corrosive
Pheromones turning to sulfur
Permeating paranoia from a torn
And broken aura. Votive and polyamorous
Venusian clouds water my roses
While I sing them lacrimosas
In an attempt at absolution

But the vocal isn't soothing
My laments land like pollutants
Losing all my elocution
The solution is elusive
Beginning to feel inhuman
Scornful blooms in my exclusion
Sour motives twist my moods
Swinging hormonal in confusion

Jealous Jadis, frigid bitch queen
Lacks self-awareness, acts selfishly
Casting community into ruin
Dooming all life to be damned

The deplorable word
Abrading my vocal chords
Eroding my character
Til I'm a starving predator

Salivating over remains
Of my lovers, all my old flames
Now extinguished in the winds of
My unrestrained hysteria

Depressive episodes, obscuring severity
Obsessing over pain, losing sight to my savagery

A cruel and brutal woman
Beyond moving, stoic mystic
With mystique misplaced,
Mistaking her last subjects fear for awe

Imperial dysphoria
Reflecting on Suspiria
De Profundis, comprehension
Muddled by vehement denial

Once allegedly pariah
Now a suicidal tyrant
Primal fears of her damnation
She composes a threnody

But her pleas for sympathy
Synthesize to vitriol
Lost in a guttural tongue
She cannot convey remorse at all

Eroded by her own gall
Her kingdom a testament
To the ruinous consequence
Of her untempered temperament

Disfigured by malfeasance
Her once-proud regal appearance
Now reflects a cold impression
Of terrifying austerity

Familicidal tendencies, her reprisals legendary
Misstepping over the line of defensiveness in suffering
Regret is an astral shroud that hangs around her realm
Thickened with naked pain, weighing down the atmosphere

Her mind ruled by poisoned mercury
Gave wings to madness wantonly
Dissociating from her fragmented identity

Ambitious royalty, bestial debauchee
Well-meaning, performing servant
Turned embittered, sequestered Queen

All shreds of hope are lost now
I did not comprehend the cost, now
All I do is feel the crushing silence I ushered into life
Seeming placid I lie, catatonic in chaos while
I internalize my hell see it reflected in my eyes