eshey - HOMESICK Lyrics

What a mess you made
When I was all alone
What a mess you created
On your own
Love and violence
Similar things, my only concern
For a woman
Who only grew up with hate
Grew up with hate
The color of her fate
Was only dark and heavy
But her soul wanted to be in love
So badly
My body feels dirty
My hands are soaked
With the ocean of your nasty
And all your flaws
I hate myself when I'm homesick for your eyes
But they only ever looked at me in lust
I find myself being homesick for your arms
But they never made me feel safe and alive
Who are you ?
Who are you ?
Who are you ?
I'll try
To blame it on winter
But my body never felt colder
Than in june
When I'm walking past your home and fearing to see you
Or the way
You traumatized my brain
Or the child inside me wanting some love
Not for long, only for a lifetime
I need to grieve her
What a mess you made
My body feels dirty
My hands are soaked
With the ocean of your nasty
And of all your flaws
I hate myself when I'm homesick for your eyes
But they only ever looked at me in lust
I find myself being homesick for your arms
But they never made me feel safe and alive
Who are you ?
Who are you ?
What a mess you made.