What If Video (MV)

What if I never make it out
That styrofoam cup, no doubt, keep me around
I take my loss in stride hoping I found
A way I could swim, instead jumped in and drowned
Past Bridge burnt, this ash I keep holding
She like, boy just take off, I'm going
Bloodstained shirt, my memories engulfed with
Flames when I look back, my past home is scorching
Don't ask why too late now, just go with it
I won't ask you why you hoein' me, that shit your business
Bad bitch, prettiest face, but she a killer
Off grid been out the way, still in my feelings
Life been heavy, it's hard, I'm trying to put up
I done made it this far, trying not to give up
Dark place without a hand, hoping for good luck
Said theyuh have my back, I don't see no one
So where the f*ck them niggas claiming they my gang went
That bitch that told me that she loved me, I ain't seen since
Sometimes you have to walk alone, I wish it wasn't like this
I always feared I'd have to take this path since I was a kid
Lately I been feeling like the world empty
Toss and turning, it's been years since I got sleep
Daydreaming bout a life that I can't reach
I ain't never had the answer's, so we gon' see
I been on my ass, ain't even move a step
Anxious going crazy, counting every breath
I want finer things, but haven't seen them yet
I'm still consumed by this hole inside of my chest
Stuck in this room with no windows, I lie in bed
I run as fast as I can, but I just run in place
Swear I don't know where I am or how I got this way
I just been down on my last and fear I'll never change
What if I never make it out
That styrofoam cup, no doubt, keep me around
I take my loss in stride hoping I found
A way I could swim, instead jumped in and drowned
Past Bridge burnt, this ash I keep holding
She like, boy just take off, I'm going
Bloodstained shirt, my memories engulfed with
Flames when I look back, my past home is scorching
Don't ask why too late now, just go with it
I won't ask you why you hoein' me, that shit your business
Bad bitch, prettiest face, but she a killer
Off grid been out the way, still in my feelings
Life been heavy, it's hard, I'm trying to put up
I done made it this far, trying not to give up
Dark place without a hand, hoping for good luck
Said theyuh have my back, I don't see no one
Only one option, oh
Only one option on my mind
The only way to stop it is slow down the time
Nail in the coffin I crossed the line
I'm all tied up, let me just unwind
It only takes one and I'll be fine, be fine, be fine
Take one more I feel nothing
Take one more I feel nothing
Nothing oh I'm nodding
Not too much, I promise
Numb to all of my problems
All from being too cautious
Augh I'm being too honest
On and on I pop it