Ethan Laymon - Sober Lyrics

So many times I've thought this over but I
Can't talk about it when I'm sober
Wish you would open your heart
And feel what I feel
But I've pushed it too far
And now it's over
So I
Keep drinking til I think it's fine
But deep down I know I'm not alright
Too many times I've thought this over but I
Can't talk about it when I'm sober
So I drink to swallow my pride
There's no where to run
But I still don't feel alive
I never meant to push myself this far but I
Can't think about it when I'm sober
Can't talk about it when I'm sober
It's getting worse as I grow older
The only way to find the confidence I need,
Has sucked the life from every bone in my body
Wish I could do this when I'm sober
So I drink to swallow my pride
Too f*cked up to run
And I'll never feel alive
I never meant to push myself this far but I
Can't think about it when I'm sober
Need to be held, The night is over
Please Calm my mind, thoughts like a boulder
I close my eyes too fall asleep at night but I
Can't sleep alone I need you over
But I
Can't talk about it when I'm sober
I hate myself when I am sober