Ethan Tristan Lee - I'm Punishing Myself Lyrics

Sitting next to you brings back so many memories and so many regrets
I look back and wonder why I did the things I did
I was taken over by one impulse, I threw everything else away
Never to see what it would have been like if I didn't f*ck up that day

I've dreamt up so many visions of how it could have been
And being with you here right now brings it all back again
And I know you'll think that I'm stupid
And I'll try to keep my mouth shut but I can't
I have to let it out, set aside my doubts and hope you don't
Slap me in the face

I wonder how it could have been
And I have to find out I want another chance
I can't put this one behind me
I gotta try it again

I'm punishing myself by bringing it up
Why can't keep my mouth shut?
I knew how you'd react but no matter how much the truth hurts
It will set me free, it will et me se how you really feel about me.

I wonder how it could have been
And I have to find out I want another chance
I can't put this one behind me
I gotta try it again