Meet me in the after life
I can change there i can make things right
I see the demons in my head
Tryna blank them out but they want me dead
I cant explain how I feel
Dumbed down by alcohol
I'm a f*cked up shell, and you know its true
I ruin everything I touch
I feel scarred and bruise
Wake up to another day
Take a peak and i want to go back to sleep
Sew my eyelids shut because I cant handle whats in front of me
Its not easy another 14 hour shift on no sleep
I cant feel my feet wasting my money on drugs and alcohol
It aint cheap
Skipped another meal today I feel faint
My head takes over i'm out of place
I cant process this sadness crippling me
Loves not an option
My heart has chipped away
All this emotion got me feeling grey
Trying to fight my fears and hold back all my tears
Tryna work all were i spent the past
21 Years (Wasted)
Have you ever felt wasted away
Stolen hearts and thoughts of death
To hungover to think
Drink again to put yourself at ease
As I said drugs and alcohol aint cheap
But its the only thing holding me down
Guess i'm addicted so I'll fade away
Till my last bottle is empty
Rather kill myself then live in my own head