Excuse My Existence - Fallen Lyrics

Every night I think of you
And I don't know why I can't undo
My mind has made a devil of me
This time you'll feel my agony
Angels spit into my face
A nightmare I can't be awoken from
This is my destiny
Shackled
Tied up to this wall of nightmares
I can't be awoken
I'll never wake up from this
Beautiful angel please hear my screams
I will call to you on this night
Means to disable the creature;
The being that is everything I am now
I am falling
& I don't want to be this
I am falling
& I don't want to be this
I am falling
& I don't want to be this
I am falling
& I don't want to be
I am falling
& I don't want to be this
I am falling
& I don't want to be this
I am falling
& I don't want to be this
I have fallen
I can't help but be this
Beautiful angel please hear my screams
I will call to you on this night
Means to disable the creature;
The being that is everything I am now
Loving so painful and so obscene
But I must call to you on this night
I can't disable the everything that you made me into be
You made me
(Suffer)
When I think of you
(Die)
It's no wonder you want me to be nothing too
(I suffer)
Deep down it's nothing new
I'm just a pawn in your games and it drives me insane
Now die inside my twisted mind
I can not live and I must leave you behind
(So die)
Is pain all I can find?
You helped me to live and then you helped me die
I have become a disgrace
And I am so f*cking broken
The memory haunts me
Nothing's left but scars and hate
It's my fault
Now everything's broken
I'll never wake up
Beautiful angel please hear my screams
I will call to you on this night
Means to disable the creature;
The being that is everything I am now
Loving so painful and so obscene
But I must call to you on this night
Disable the being that is everything
I've become