Far from Midnight - Useful? Don't Think So. Lyrics

Have you ever felt pain
Ever felt the memories trembling in your brain
Have you ever felt guilt
Ever felt someone else crush the trust that you built

The victim of it all
Is what i've been for as long as i can recall
Always hung out with traitors
Who told me i'd never become any greater

My friends make me nervous
They don't make me feel like i live for a purpose
My feelings are worthless
They all only care about what's on the surface

You know i try to sort it out
But i only end up with one million doubts
And as i try my best
I am starting to realize i'm failing the test

You don't see the things i'm feeling
You can't see that i'm not healing
You don't know i'm always crying
God knows that i'm f*cking trying

With the things i'm feeling
You can't see that i'm not healing
You don't know i'm always crying
God knows that i'm f*cking dying

At 6 years old
"You are a smart kid" is what i was told
Well i'm 18 today
And it seems like no has good things to say

Time's running fast
If life was a marathon i would be last
And not cause i'm slow
But because i am waiting for others to grow

Grow up and accept me
For what i believe and what i want to be
Grow up and to learn
That i have been waiting to long for my turn

Too bad i am flattened
I already know that it's not gonna happen
I guess no one is blessed
I am starting to realize i'm failing the test

You don't see the things i'm feeling
You can't see that i'm not healing
You don't know i'm always crying
God knows that i'm f*cking trying

With the things i'm feeling
You can't see that i'm not healing
You don't know i'm always crying
God knows that i'm f*cking dying

I want to carry on
I need to find a place where i feel i belong
I don't want it to end
All that i need is to make a real friend

Not buying more tricks
I am always surrounded by morons and dicks
It's time for some change
Goodbye to the f*ckers who make me feel strange

Wherever i face
I only see people who ruin my place
Wherever i go
I only see people who make me feel low

Not looking down
Better things can still done to this town
I'm not like the rest
I'm starting to realize i'm passing the test

Never seen the things i'm feeling
Never seen i've not been healing
Never seen that i've been crying
God knows i'll keep f*cking trying

With the things i'm feeling
Never seen i've not been healing
Never seen that i've been crying
God knows i was f*cking dying