Fat Stallion - Get Up Lyrics

Everytime I get up
I just get down again
Spending time I give up
Just to be let down again
Everytime I get up
I just get down again
Never ending these interrupting inner voices
Shutting me down again

This white blank page
Stares me in the face
Mumford mumbles in my head
This flesh will go to waste
Time flanks day
But who cares if I keep the pace
Turn my head, bite my ears
No one even knows that I joined the race
Only grazing, never hits
Still I write in search of Babel
Running in circles, these feet don't feel so stable
This gravel in my shoe might one day be fatal
But it still won't slow me down I know I will tell my tale
Trained for weeks
Dug so deep
Painfully
But I'm still too weak
Looking up, all I see is the top of the hill
But I don't know how I will ever make it up there
Even if I spent my whole life climbing, grinding
Seeing everybody that's already up above me
I never even beat my ego
Ergo, how will I ever be where my heart is telling me to go
I can't say, so I guess I'll stay
Right here writing just for me today

Everytime I get up
I just get down again
Spending time I give up
Just to be let down again
Everytime I get up
I just get down again
Never ending these interrupting inner voices
Shutting me down again

When I was young, I didn't have a ton of friends
I guess I prefer to be alone
At home, on my own
With a song stuck in my soul that I just can't seem to hold
A constant quest to dig within
But never really breaking ground
A question queueing up again
With lines of marks that won't back down
Mindless scars left by this pen
Doubting every single sound
Brown notes thrown out leaving only grey
Now those loud no's screaming over yay's
Shut down gut sounds streaming down my face
With tomes on tomes of penned self-hate

Everytime I get up
I just get down again
Spending time I give up
Just to be let down again
Everytime I get up
I just get down again
Never ending these interrupting inner voices
Shutting me down again

Every time I get up
It feels like so much effort
Even when success is set up
Apparently I'll just give up
The friends that I've made
Through the sounds I make
Never ever seem to stay
Much longer after the play
Curtains close, so they go
Never to be seen again
Blocking sets, the act forgets
The script of what was said
Was I only there with ability
Even though I'm doubting these
Can I can't I stand for what
I've worked so hard to be

Everytime I get up
I just get down again
Spending time I give up
Just to be let down again
Everytime I get up
I just get down again
Never ending these interrupting inner voices
Shutting me down again

Everytime I get up
It's a battle to the top
I have to tell myself to shut up
Otherwise I know I'll mess it up
Crossing the bar and yelling at myself
Tossing the star back on the shelf
Coughing now from yelling
Calming down to help myself
Everytime I get up
It's a battle to the top
Stepping out and getting caught
By everything telling me to stop
Crossing lines and changing lanes
Gritting my teeth through the pain
Despite what my doubt will say
I will make it there one day

Everytime I get down
I will get up again
Everytime I get down
I will get up again
Everytime I get down
I will get up again
Everytime I get down
I will get up again