Regrets Video (MV)

I been getting depression all up late at night
It's been pressing on my shoulders don't know how to fight
Grow older but this weight don't go away with the hype
I want it too but it wont unless I'm doin alright
And I aint doing alright the uphill battle goes on
Another day another struggle I wanna move on
Only way i know how
With girls n drugs ain't helping at all
Take it back too Music over all
Cause lately I've been feeling helpless like there's no one else
But all I do is push away the ones who try n help
So all I can justify doin is blame myself
N obviously it's my own fault that I'm in this hell
I f*cking hate myself and don't know how to turn around
Cause all I do is kick my self when I'm feeling down
It's me myself and I that's why I f*cking hate it now
The only one who brings me up keeps me on the ground
N that's the same one always smirking at me in mirror
Sadly higher I get see shit clearer
Maybe I'd feel more secure sitting in a beamer
F*ck it lately I don't even know what I want either
I just wanna smile once wit out it feeling forced
N maybe it really feels better crying in a porsche
N maybe I should go back to take it out on whores
All I know is all my battles turning into wars
Told myself that I would never ever have regrets
But now all I do is sit with a bong to the left
And a bitch on my lap I'm doin lines of her chest
Cause ever single night is Oh My God Its The Best
I'm Doin the shit that mama wouldn't like n say I'm blessed
Know I'm different but lately I'm acting like the rest
Since when is getting high to be happy a f*cking flex
Don't want to admit it but think I'm depressed
Told myself that I would never ever have regrets
But now all I do is sit with a bong to the left
And a bitch on my lap I'm doin lines of her chest
Cause ever single night is Oh My God Its The Best
I'm Doin the shit that mama wouldn't like n say I'm blessed
Know I'm different but lately I'm acting like the rest
Since when is getting high to be happy a f*cking flex
Don't want to admit it but think I'm depressed
I might even be feeling helpless n reaching out
But no one could really care less so I keep it down
Gave my heart n soul to the people that I care about
But f*cked around and they left it in the lost n found
I been sleeping with these demons should be keeping out
But I feel more comfortable on edge so I keep em round
As my mind grows weaker all these songs get deeper now
It's crazy how I can feel alone when I'm in a crowd
No one even comes close to how I'm feeling wow
That's why writing this so maybe you would here me out
I never moved on n maybe I still have regrets
We all do most too embarrassed to confess
Lying to others is easier when your lying to yourself
Doesn't help making excuses to distract ourselves
N having no responsibilities keeps us in hell
N having no responsibilities is keeping us in hell
Told myself that I would never ever have regrets
But now all I do is sit with a bong to the left
And a bitch on my lap I'm doin lines of her chest
Cause ever single night is Oh My God Its The Best
I'm Doin the shit that mama wouldn't like n say I'm blessed
Know I'm different but lately I'm acting like the rest
Since when is getting high to be happy a f*cking flex
Don't want to admit it but think I'm depressed
Told myself that I would never ever have regrets
But now all I do is sit with a bong to the left
And a bitch on my lap I'm doin lines of her chest
Cause ever single night is Oh My God Its The Best
I'm Doin the shit that mama wouldn't like n say I'm blessed
Know I'm different but lately I'm acting like the rest
Since when is getting high to be happy a f*cking flex
Don't want to admit it but think I'm depressed